It Looks Like...

This coming weekend has been designed with my birthday in mind... the four and final major in Golf begins tomorrow, Yankees/Red Sox... five games in four days and Louis CK is in town... well Alabany so not really but I'm reaching here. Anyway with the party coming up and the excitemnt I know I should feel I can't help but feel a little sad because while it seems that everything is coming together just right... things couldn't be more wrong. Its kinda funny... but I'm sure we'll have a good time this weekend but just keep in mind that if I might need a little time to myself or whatever that that be allowed and not try to push and not try to make me super happy and party crazy and woo hoo all weekend long. I'm going to need time to reflect and deal with feelings. I just didn't want to have to say it face to face to anyone... and I don't want it mentioned in front of me or whatever just keep it in mind. Anyway with that being said... there's only one more day till my birthday and its my last night of twentyeightdom (made that up... you can use it) so really... that means nothing to me just wanted to use that word. Godd day sir.... ISAID GOOD DAY!!!

So I'm playing Tiger Woods last night (I'm awesome by the way) and I have my Ipod on random and I hear this song by Indigo Girls (insert gay joke here) that I've never heard before and it really gets to where I'm feeling right now and it kinda freaked me out... thought I'd share a portion of the lyrics with you... its off the 1200 curfews live albums...

I wish i had a riverI could skate away on
'cause i made my baby cry
You tried hard to help me
And you put me at ease
Then loved me so naughty
Made me weak in my knees
And wish i had a river
That i could skate away on

I'm so hard to handle
I'm selfish and i'm sad
Now i lost the best baby
That i ever had
And i wish i had a river
That i could skate away on
I wish i had a river so wide
I could teach my feet to fly
I wish i had a river
That i could skate away on
Cause i made my baby say goodbye